Diary4Part4: DownTheRabbitHole

Disclaimer: This post includes graphic (kind of awkward) descriptions of my first experiences with online porn. I had a personal computer in my room for the first time. I believe I only had it for a few months by the time I wrote the following: Continued from “November 30, 2007: Brad (at school) the guyContinue reading “Diary4Part4: DownTheRabbitHole”

Diary4Part2: DancingQueen

“September 27, 2007: The health and P.E. test went ok. Today we had an African master class. It was a lot of rolling of the body and booty. I was so consumed today that I forgot I had rehearsal after school. I came an hour later. I’m gonna have to ask someone to teach me.”Continue reading “Diary4Part2: DancingQueen”

DreamsFromYear13

I am a dreamer, literally. I consistently have vivid, lucid dreams that are related to what I am going through in reality. In the following dreams, taken from the diary of my summer break before high school when I was 13 years old, they were more of an escape and a manifestation of my innermostContinue reading “DreamsFromYear13”

My2ndDiary: Age13-Part1

A few years ago, I was in therapy seeking help after being in an abusive relationship. I discovered, from the insight of the therapist, after sharing my childhood experiences with her, that my tendency to over analyse people was a lingering self-developed survival tactic:

ElementaryInOakland:TheDarkSide

My mother was a model volunteer at E.S. Elementary. She was at the school so often, that all of the faculty knew exactly who me and my sisters were. It was nice getting special attention, but there was a downside to that as well. Luckily, I was well behaved and very smart. But if IContinue reading “ElementaryInOakland:TheDarkSide”

AboutMe

Why am I blogging publicly, rather than keeping everything in my journals? By putting these written experiences online, my diaries have purpose. I’m breathing new life into my experiences. I am taking back the narrative of my life. No one can control me anymore, not my parents, not God, not significant others, just me. MyContinue reading “AboutMe”