“March 27, 2008: The past week has been mid-terms. In dance, we’re supposed to run rally choreography, but the freshmen aren’t getting along so well today. Mom sent Ms. Rogers an email. It’s ok. The experience only made me stronger. “ I downplayed my experiences with the other freshman. They were very disrespectful and madeContinue reading “Diary5Part3: DancingQueen”
“September 27, 2007: The health and P.E. test went ok. Today we had an African master class. It was a lot of rolling of the body and booty. I was so consumed today that I forgot I had rehearsal after school. I came an hour later. I’m gonna have to ask someone to teach me.”Continue reading “Diary4Part2: DancingQueen”
“July 22, 2007: Today we went to Marine World. I woke up sick. I’m freezing even though it’s warm. Then, I ended up burning up. I had such a bad headache, I couldn’t really ride rides. Me and Marlin kept looking at each other. He sat next to me when we were getting ready to go. You could have cut the tension with a butterknife. He sat next to me on the tram too. Score! I hope he didn’t catch me smiling.”
Normal teenage angst was magnified by anxiety and depression which I did not always write about since it was so hard to deal with.
A few years ago, I was in therapy seeking help after being in an abusive relationship. I discovered, from the insight of the therapist, after sharing my childhood experiences with her, that my tendency to over analyse people was a lingering self-developed survival tactic:
When I was eight, my family moved from Oakland, CA to the suburbs of Sacramento, CA. It was a rough transition for me. My older sister and younger sister were enrolled at the same school, but they didn’t have any more spots for a third-grader. So, for the first time in my life, I wentContinue reading “M.T.Elementary”
My mother was a model volunteer at E.S. Elementary. She was at the school so often, that all of the faculty knew exactly who me and my sisters were. It was nice getting special attention, but there was a downside to that as well. Luckily, I was well behaved and very smart. But if IContinue reading “ElementaryInOakland:TheDarkSide”
I went to E.S. Elementary school in Oakland from Kindergarten to the third grade. Before Kindergarten, my mother did school lessons with us at home. I wasn’t too excited about it, but she explained it was important that I went in there with some knowledge. My kindergarten teacher’s name was Ms. Bee. She was aContinue reading “ElementaryInOakland”