Bath Stew

What do you do when nothing can soothe you? When your heart is pounding and your mind can’t focus and you feel like you’ll be stuck in this bubble of negativity? Many times, I open my meditation app only to scroll through and close the app in frustration. It’s hard to sit still with onesContinue reading “Bath Stew”

My Mental Health and Medication

I haven’t had the motivation to write for months, in my journal or otherwise. When I’m feeling really down, writing starts to feel like a chore. This is what’s been happening for the past few months: I have barely gotten any work acting (surprise surprise). I now have a psychiatrist and have been on medicationContinue reading “My Mental Health and Medication”

Living With My Ex

I’m in bed right now barely able to do anything because I’m experiencing severe nausea. I even had to go and crouch in front of the toilet with my head hanging over, hoping that if something came up I wouldn’t get anything on my favorite Stranger Things sweater. I came back to my room andContinue reading “Living With My Ex”

Diary5: MyFirstKiss

Note: This is a long Post! It’s a bit challenging to fit an entire diary into a few blog posts but I’d rather not do 60 million parts. I was able to fit this one into 3. This diary starts off after I “went” to a going away party thrown by a member of myContinue reading “Diary5: MyFirstKiss”

MotherDearest

Most of my life, I wished I did not have a mother, or that I had a different one. I wanted someone whom I knew, could have a friendship with, and that would take care of my emotional needs. I wanted to trust her and to truly love her. I eventually accepted that I could not have the relationship with my mother that I wanted. I would keep her at a distance because that was safest for me.