“September 27, 2007: The health and P.E. test went ok. Today we had an African master class. It was a lot of rolling of the body and booty. I was so consumed today that I forgot I had rehearsal after school. I came an hour later. I’m gonna have to ask someone to teach me.”Continue reading “Diary4Part2: DancingQueen”
“July 22, 2007: Today we went to Marine World. I woke up sick. I’m freezing even though it’s warm. Then, I ended up burning up. I had such a bad headache, I couldn’t really ride rides. Me and Marlin kept looking at each other. He sat next to me when we were getting ready to go. You could have cut the tension with a butterknife. He sat next to me on the tram too. Score! I hope he didn’t catch me smiling.”
“July 2, 2007: On Sunday the Js were there. They were playing around and I think they were talking about me. Jo calls the oldest brothers Beaver and Leprechaun. They are so hot. I wanted to stare at them, but when I did, they kept looking at me. Jo said they’re mean. That did seem true, but when I first knew them, I thought they were so nice and sweet. What happened?
June 8, 2007: “This diary will describe my life in the summer of 2007 after I graduated from eighth grade on June 6th. I will be moving towards… High School! This is where new adventures of another summer unfolds and it’s my first summer as a teen! I am 13 years old and will remainContinue reading “Diary3Part1: SummerBeforeHighSchool”
I am a dreamer, literally. I consistently have vivid, lucid dreams that are related to what I am going through in reality. In the following dreams, taken from the diary of my summer break before high school when I was 13 years old, they were more of an escape and a manifestation of my innermostContinue reading “DreamsFromYear13”
Normal teenage angst was magnified by anxiety and depression which I did not always write about since it was so hard to deal with.
A few years ago, I was in therapy seeking help after being in an abusive relationship. I discovered, from the insight of the therapist, after sharing my childhood experiences with her, that my tendency to over analyse people was a lingering self-developed survival tactic:
I went to E.S. Elementary school in Oakland from Kindergarten to the third grade. Before Kindergarten, my mother did school lessons with us at home. I wasn’t too excited about it, but she explained it was important that I went in there with some knowledge. My kindergarten teacher’s name was Ms. Bee. She was aContinue reading “ElementaryInOakland”