My Mental Health and Medication

I haven’t had the motivation to write for months, in my journal or otherwise. When I’m feeling really down, writing starts to feel like a chore. This is what’s been happening for the past few months: I have barely gotten any work acting (surprise surprise). I now have a psychiatrist and have been on medicationContinue reading “My Mental Health and Medication”

Living With My Ex

I’m in bed right now barely able to do anything because I’m experiencing severe nausea. I even had to go and crouch in front of the toilet with my head hanging over, hoping that if something came up I wouldn’t get anything on my favorite Stranger Things sweater. I came back to my room andContinue reading “Living With My Ex”

DeadName

For the majority of my life, I have not identified with or liked the name that my parents assigned me at birth. It is a religious name, and commonly a male name. The latter has been the most difficult as I am often misgendered at medical appointments and government agencies. I visited my parents forContinue reading “DeadName”

AnxiousWolf

My boyfriend just bought me a weighted stuffed animal to help with my anxiety. I sometimes feel fearful, restless, worried, hopeless, and/or sad. Throughout my life, I have experienced a roller coaster of good times and bad times. It’s great when the good times last for a while. Last year I was laid off fromContinue reading “AnxiousWolf”

Diary3Part2: BoyfriendFantasy

“July 2, 2007: On Sunday the Js were there. They were playing around and I think they were talking about me. Jo calls the oldest brothers Beaver and Leprechaun. They are so hot. I wanted to stare at them, but when I did, they kept looking at me. Jo said they’re mean. That did seem true, but when I first knew them, I thought they were so nice and sweet. What happened?