I haven’t had the motivation to write for months, in my journal or otherwise. When I’m feeling really down, writing starts to feel like a chore. This is what’s been happening for the past few months: I have barely gotten any work acting (surprise surprise). I now have a psychiatrist and have been on medicationContinue reading “My Mental Health and Medication”
Tag Archives: anxiety
Living With My Ex
I’m in bed right now barely able to do anything because I’m experiencing severe nausea. I even had to go and crouch in front of the toilet with my head hanging over, hoping that if something came up I wouldn’t get anything on my favorite Stranger Things sweater. I came back to my room andContinue reading “Living With My Ex”
DeadName
For the majority of my life, I have not identified with or liked the name that my parents assigned me at birth. It is a religious name, and commonly a male name. The latter has been the most difficult as I am often misgendered at medical appointments and government agencies. I visited my parents forContinue reading “DeadName”
AnxiousWolf
My boyfriend just bought me a weighted stuffed animal to help with my anxiety. I sometimes feel fearful, restless, worried, hopeless, and/or sad. Throughout my life, I have experienced a roller coaster of good times and bad times. It’s great when the good times last for a while. Last year I was laid off fromContinue reading “AnxiousWolf”
Diary3Part2: BoyfriendFantasy
“July 2, 2007: On Sunday the Js were there. They were playing around and I think they were talking about me. Jo calls the oldest brothers Beaver and Leprechaun. They are so hot. I wanted to stare at them, but when I did, they kept looking at me. Jo said they’re mean. That did seem true, but when I first knew them, I thought they were so nice and sweet. What happened?
WhatAreTheOdds
For the past two weeks I have been roller skating on a bike path near my apartment. I have been skating off and on my whole life. At 7 I got my first pair of roller blades and protective gear. I remember skating up and down the red driveway of our little house in OaklandContinue reading “WhatAreTheOdds”