“December 25, 2007: Christmas Eve 10:19AM: I had a dream about going on this evil enchanted train and I knew all about it but dad wouldn’t admit it. Then we landed at this city where there were evil creatures everywhere spying on each other, trying to kill each other. I turned into a raven andContinue reading “DreamsFromDiary5”
“March 27, 2008: The past week has been mid-terms. In dance, we’re supposed to run rally choreography, but the freshmen aren’t getting along so well today. Mom sent Ms. Rogers an email. It’s ok. The experience only made me stronger. “ I downplayed my experiences with the other freshman. They were very disrespectful and madeContinue reading “Diary5Part3: DancingQueen”
“January 13, 2008: Me and dad clashed again today cuz I wanted to come home early to do homework and chores after 1st service. He was talking about me putting dance before church and homework and shit. He’s got it all twisted. At least I was thinking about getting it done. He doesn’t understand theContinue reading “Diary5Part2: Homecoming”
Note: This is a long Post! It’s a bit challenging to fit an entire diary into a few blog posts but I’d rather not do 60 million parts. I was able to fit this one into 3. This diary starts off after I “went” to a going away party thrown by a member of myContinue reading “Diary5: MyFirstKiss”
Disclaimer: This post includes graphic (kind of awkward) descriptions of my first experiences with online porn. I had a personal computer in my room for the first time. I believe I only had it for a few months by the time I wrote the following: Continued from “November 30, 2007: Brad (at school) the guyContinue reading “Diary4Part4: DownTheRabbitHole”
“September 27, 2007: The health and P.E. test went ok. Today we had an African master class. It was a lot of rolling of the body and booty. I was so consumed today that I forgot I had rehearsal after school. I came an hour later. I’m gonna have to ask someone to teach me.”Continue reading “Diary4Part2: DancingQueen”
“On Halloween I went trick or treating with Lynn, Lexus, Silver, and Cam. Also, Lexus’s boyfriend Dre and Dre’s sister were there. Lynn’s new boyfriend David came as well. He drums, plays guitar, and piano. According to Lynn he’s good with his hands, on instruments and her body. It was hard to hang out with her because they were attached the whole time.
In this diary, I am entering high school. My older sister was a sophomore there, but provided minimum guidance and social support. Luckily for me, I was in the school dance company. I was passionate and motivated to eventually become one of the top dancers. My only dance experience before high school was in churchContinue reading “Diary4: FreshMeat”
“July 22, 2007: Today we went to Marine World. I woke up sick. I’m freezing even though it’s warm. Then, I ended up burning up. I had such a bad headache, I couldn’t really ride rides. Me and Marlin kept looking at each other. He sat next to me when we were getting ready to go. You could have cut the tension with a butterknife. He sat next to me on the tram too. Score! I hope he didn’t catch me smiling.”
“July 2, 2007: On Sunday the Js were there. They were playing around and I think they were talking about me. Jo calls the oldest brothers Beaver and Leprechaun. They are so hot. I wanted to stare at them, but when I did, they kept looking at me. Jo said they’re mean. That did seem true, but when I first knew them, I thought they were so nice and sweet. What happened?
June 8, 2007: “This diary will describe my life in the summer of 2007 after I graduated from eighth grade on June 6th. I will be moving towards… High School! This is where new adventures of another summer unfolds and it’s my first summer as a teen! I am 13 years old and will remainContinue reading “Diary3Part1: SummerBeforeHighSchool”
I am a dreamer, literally. I consistently have vivid, lucid dreams that are related to what I am going through in reality. In the following dreams, taken from the diary of my summer break before high school when I was 13 years old, they were more of an escape and a manifestation of my innermostContinue reading “DreamsFromYear13”
Normal teenage angst was magnified by anxiety and depression which I did not always write about since it was so hard to deal with.
April 9, 2007: “Today I had talent show practice after school. Me and Lynn are doing our lip-sync song for the talent show tomorrow at celebrate S. Middle School. Over 700 peeps will be there. Tickets are $.25 each.” This was an event thrown at our middle school where there were vendors and performances. ItContinue reading “My2ndDiary: Age13 – Part2”
A few years ago, I was in therapy seeking help after being in an abusive relationship. I discovered, from the insight of the therapist, after sharing my childhood experiences with her, that my tendency to over analyse people was a lingering self-developed survival tactic:
January 18, 2007: “Mrs. Seeker (the middle school dance teacher) said Mrs. Rogers, head of no limit rhythm (the middle school dance program) was looking at me and she thought I was a really good dancer. They’re going to recommend me for U.R. That’s S High’s dance group. We’ll do assemblies and a whole lotContinue reading “MyFirstDiary Part2”
Note: The quotes are passages directly from my diary. I corrected some grammar, but not all of it, wanting it to be representative of how my flow of thought translated to paper. The text without quotes are my own personal thoughts, explanations, realizations, additional memories etc. I have changed the names of everyone mentioned forContinue reading “MyFirstDiary: 8thGrade”